Façade/Intro

Well, it would seem that I have finally joined the world of blogging.

So far, so good.

I suppose a formal introduction would be appreciated from my soon to be mass viewing public, so here you go:

"Hello, my name is Aidan Davidson. I am your friend."

I think that sums up where this blog is going and my frame of mind.

--END INTRO--

Now, for my first real 'blog post', which I shall entitle: "Façade"

We all hide behind a shell, a shield - a barrier that allows us to give away just as much as we want, but never to let ourselves become vulnerable. We keep hidden away those dark secrets we hold within ourself, as those are yours - and yours alone.

For someone to enter that inner most dark place of yours, that place of supreme tenderness and vulnerability, well, that is to give one's self up. It is a relinquish of our security; a safety net. It is when someone holds that knowledge, that pure essence of your very existence is when they can destroy you - when they completely make you crumble as a person - as a being or a soul.

I never let this down, I never let myself be who I am or reveal what I truly think or feel. There is always this wall between me and the real me - sometimes it is fragile and some may be revealed from those who look hard enough or know what to look for, but it is never really broken down. Never are the demons set loose to destroy what I have created in myself as a person.

This isn't a positive, this is a burden. I have not met a person I have truly been able to release myself to, despite the strong want to. This leads to frustration, built up rage - never truly getting what you want or need. Never fully gratified as a person.

We keep up a façade because it is protection - never revealing our true self, only what we wish to show. Some try to push forward this image of them self that is a total contrast of what they really are - to completely distort their own personal reality as a way of pleasing others around them, or to feel they are something different to what they are - not something they loath.

This 'post' has been a disjointed affair, that lacked direction or truly captured what I was trying to say. I only hope I don't disappoint my non-existent audience.